sometimes i have the urge to destroy things too, except mine is more of an emotional destruction. i want to destroy my marriage or my friendships. i want to watch everyone hurt because i'm hurting and why aren't they?

i can't promise that things get better because i don't know the answer to these sorts of things. i have better time and worse times and it all muddles together some days.

but... i can say there are paths to lead to soothing the hurt.

and it's okay to stare. sometimes that's all we can do and it's okay.