i just dont know what i want. im just so tired and dont have the motivation to do anything and i just feel so hopeless. my friend asked me if i wanted to hangout but im just not in the mood to hangout lately cuz of my depression (which she doesnt know about) so i told her im tired and made excuses and whatnot to tell her no. then i started feeling like an idiot for telling her no just because of my depression so i went back and told her lets hangout. like my depression makes me feel so pathetic and so stupid which makes me do stupid things like this and then i start feeling guilty later (if that makes any sense at all). like i just don't know what i want and what i want to do. i just feel just so pathetic and soooo stupid. (sorry if this post literally makes no sense at all).