No offense meant, and none taken. I just wish you wouldn't "prescribe" for yourself. If I were your patient, would you advise me to go off Zyprexa because I want to intensify my experience at a religious retreat? Somehow, I doubt it.

I admit it: I want to help save you from yourself, not just because I like you and feel a kinship with you, but because I want you to make it through your monitoring program successfully, and you are taking a big risk by not sticking to your med regimen. I also understand the compulsion to mess with meds and indeed am experiencing something similar myself; I love Zyprexa because it works to keep me level, but I also want to come off of it so I can feel the exuberance that I miss so much. Does that make sense?

I know you're going to do what you want. Just be aware that you're risking decompensation and that episodes are a b**** to catch once they get away from you. You say you'll restart the Saphris if you get sick; what if you become hypomanic and lose your insight as many of us do?

Just a few thoughts.....at any rate, I wish you the best of luck.