Moonkin, You don't have to leave. I've ask a couple times for my account to be deleted, only to have second thoughts. The "push-pull" behaviour is only painful to ourselfs mainly, I think for others who are there or have been there fully understand this. Just keep on going posting. We're humans just struggling to get by some days. We're all here because we're not "quite there" if that makes sense?

Take care!