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Originally Posted by skies_
Yes, I know I was not articulate. I think what happened is that i was trying to ask my question in a vague way because these experiences are so shameful to discuss. It backfired, and ended up being non-truthful in the name of deflection...
It's quite possible that what you describe is more accurate, and I am thinking about that possibility. I'm going to have to just wait until I see my therapist next week. It's just so difficult only seeing him once a week (that's all I can afford); he has mentioned that we should think about increasing the frequency of our sessions. I didn't tell him yet that I couldn't afford it, although we did talk about that upon our initial meeting almost a year ago.
I could really relate to what you said about impulses; that's the type of language I can understand this with. Please don't ever not post on my threads. I appreciate your input, always. There's too much stuff surfacing now to hold back. I was hoping to find someone else with these experiences so that maybe I could PM with them.
BTW-the abreaction concept does not seem as controversial when you have lots of pre-verbal and somatic stuff, but I do think it's something one has to experience to understand.
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I did experience a lot of that "somatic stuff." So it's not that I don't have experience to draw from, but what I learned from it, after a lot of time and research and consideration, was that forcing it into the box of concrete age-based memory wasn't accurate or ultimately helpful for me. Of course, everyone's experience varies, but it's actually precisely because I dealt with a great deal of it and then lived many years past it and looked back with a more... comprehensive and objective viewpoint than the one I had at the time, that I found the controversy around it so relevant.
I hope something works out with your therapist, I know it's hard to not have the means to afford as much time as we feel we need- hopefully he'll come up with something.