{{{{{{{{Erin}}}}}}}}}}}

Bankruptcy would be best - I know this. There is no way I can afford to pay back in anyway the stuff I have from years ago and now.

We frequent the food pantries now, but you are only allowed to go so many times in a month as they are low on supplies and I'm not really in a big town here. Salvation Army helps out somewhat and my former caseworker gave me numbers to call and we do.

As for disability, I am awaiting my hearing in front of a judge - I filed one year ago in May. They will not set a date until 13 months from my last appeal, which makes it the end of this year, beginning of next. I send them info as I receive it with no acknowledgement from them.

I called once, just to make sure that they had received something and they told me they don't even touch my file until after the waiting period. They just put the info in there. My back surgeon finally after all this time has agreed that disability would be best for me - before this he refused to put it in his notes. My primary doc already made it possible for me to have a permanent handicap parking tag.

The problem is I'm working, and working alot. They don't realize that I have no choice - pain or not - I have to do it. I won't have my family in the street. I know they prefer you not to be working at all, nothing, for at least a year.

The first time they turned me down was because "we do not believe that your condition will last more than one year"..........hello????? I now have permanent leg damage and four back surgeries under my belt plus my brain is turning to mush these days........[sigh].

It took me awhile to even file because I couldn't come to terms with it, but I have now. I can still work part time, but at least I can take care of me - no one else does - and have time with my son. I'm working on it.

Btw, thank you for the thoughts and input. Keep them coming.........maybe an objective person can see something I'm missing.


Courage is fear that has said its prayers.
Dorothy Bernard