I remember, at the height of my Social Anxiety Crisis, I was terribly afraid that people were judging me harshly and pointing out my glaring flaws. I didn't feel in danger, I felt embarrassed, like I wanted to just disappear. I was ashamed of myself. I didn't want to say the wrong thing and have it come back to haunt me somehow like being known as that stupid girl who says stupid things and makes a fool of herself.

I've gotten over it for the most part although I still ramble and become frustrated under certain circumstances. For example, when talking to my fiance's mother or while over at his parents' house. And definitely when he decides to put me on the spot and ask me to solve a riddle. My brain shuts down. I had to tell him to stop it because he was gonna make my brain explode. I'm not really sure what my brain thinks is gonna happen in those situations that makes it malfunction.