I totally understand how you feel. I just spent my entire vacation binging. I weight a lot. I feel horrible. I can't even step on the scale.

I try to find tricks to help myself. I know that I'll overeat at work so I'm going to bring only $3 in cash from now on because there isn't much I can buy for $3. The only stuff available is healthy at that price point. If I don't buy junk food, I won't eat it. I just sent a bunch of junk food with my fiance to his work so that if he needs a snack, he can have it so it's not wasted but it's not in the apartment either.

I also just bought a sticky blackboard thing and stuck it to the hallway wall. I drew a calendar and marked down my stats, my goals, and pre-scheduled trips to the gym. I'm hoping that helps get the few pounds off that I know I put on...