Usually in the extremes of my episodes I have memory blanks when I come back down. All of my hospitalizations have been during extreme manias or depressions and I don't remember a lot of it. I never remember visits - last year I accused my mom and sister of not having come visit me during stay number 3, but they had and it took me almost a year to remember, so one of my friends gave me a "guestbook" during stay number 4 so visitors could sign and I would remember they came.