((((((((((((Petunia))))))))))))))

Call and find out. I know it's scary, but I think you should. Not everyone you care about is going to die under bad circumstances, I promise. You must be feeling so alone right now, I have no idea.

Call your pdoc and tell her how you feel. She reached out to you, so she cares about you. Just because she cares about you doesn't mean she's going to die or abandon you Petunia.

I know you miss T, I would too a whole bunch if I was in your situation.

Please take care of yourself, and PM me if you want to talk, okay?