I need to write about Friday's session (I am going to see him on Thursdays and Fridays). It was all the Brainspotting thing. And I left there feeling like I had been hit by a freight train. It was all just alternating between good and bad memories, whatever came into my mind, discussing them and paying really close attention to my physiological responses, breathing, any pain I might feel, anxiety level.

Last thing, he asked me how the session made me feel
-and to respond with first thing that popped into my mind - I blurted out "please don't let me die" - I can't believe I did that now, it seems pretty desperate. I guess I am desperate if I am so emotionally overwhelmed that I am actually envious of Robin Williams final act of his own desperation.