You said:

It actually brings me to tears a bit this morning but I have been so raw lately. I suppose I wish to keep the wounds open as long as they need to be to be productive but after such a long time I wonder how that may be. I want so much of where I am emotionally to be healed. SIgh....

Maybe you are ready to move on a bit and close some of those wounds. It sounds like you are suffering. I am close to tears reading your post. Thank you.

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Sister