For the past several years I have had an ever growing feeling that living is a losing battle. I try to look at the good in my life - good career, my two cats, loving parents - but in the end I just cannot see the point. I don't know why I feel this way but it has lead me to make several risky life choices.

I'm just scared to tell someone how I really feel. I tried letting my parents know and they told me to seek help. I don't want to feel this way and I don't want to hurt myself or let anyone down.

Early last year I started seeing a psychiatrist and was very conservative about letting him know my feelings and struggles. I know he is there to help... but do you think not letting my feelings out hurt my possible treatment?

I missed an appointment towards the middle of last year and just never went back and abruptly stopped taking my medication. Now I feel even worse and each week is a struggle for me.

The feeling I have now is that I am just sinking away into an abyss and the ending result is going to cause my family pain and I don't want that.