I just want to add to the subject of "what other family members or other people in your life know about what is really going on"....

Many do see the reality of your situation even though they do not express it - for whatever their reasons are. Some are in denial. I know it's painful - you want to be validated for what you have gone through. I have a stepsister who understands me and I understand her - but that's it. No one in my family past or present "gets it' and they are sick in their own way.

I try not to let that hurt me anymore. I seek out people who I share compassion with and support - and it's a two way street. Having this PC site is so helpful as well.

Focus on your wellbeing - that is what matters. Get help to resolve the issuesfrom the past - you may be already doing that. Blood relatives are not always going to be there for you - sad but true.