My eye contact and focus depends on what we are taking about. If it's something too vulnerable, I look anywhere in the room but at my t. If we are taking about something easier, or I'm in a better head - space, I can make some eye contact with t. I know in the past I have made t's uncomfortable unintentionally with where I look. I tend to get fascinated by bodies, but not in a sexual way, just in a "oh, that's what a normal, unscared arm looks like". I felt really bad one time when a t had a shorter skirt on and I was spacing out on how "normal" her leg looked. I realized it when she shifted to move her skirt down as much as possible. I wished I had the courage to tell her I was simply fascinated by the fact that her leg was not covered in scars, but I got embarrassed.