I love animals a lot, too. Especially cats, since I've only owned cats since I was 9. I often find sick and dead animals and it's awful. And it always brings other problems to focus, too. I'll go, a stray pet that I've been caring for and x also happened and so did y and my life is a mess. I always try to keep myself busy and then remember all the good things that also happened (even if they don't compare to the bad things that keep happening) just to feel better. So, I just wanted to say hang in there and that I completely understand.