Okay, I am having trougle letting go of the past. I tend to hold on to things, especially painful things. And there is a more current chapter to the issue too. It wasn't as painful and scary, probably because it was f2f and included support, but it's the same theme. At the end of the session before last, she told me that she likes me as a person, and that is why she hasn't terminated, but I have to start doing some self-exploration. The implication seemed to be that she will terminate if I don't start making some progress. And I was pleased that she said she liked me (and surprised). I'm not sure that I can believe that she likes me, and it reminds me of my mother saing "I love you" and I told my mom "I don't believe you."