I can look at my T when she talks or when I talk about easier stuff but when she asks me questions about things I am embarrassed about or find shameful...I either look at the wall to the side of her or I end up slouching so far down in the sofa I look at the ceiling...

When I was first talking about my trauma with Young T I would sit sideways on the sofa and look at the wall... There was a tiny hole in the wall from the door knob because there must not have been a door stop...occasionally I would discuss what I saw in the shape of the hole... YT once even rolled his chair into joining me in my little avoidance game..

But with my first T...when I was talking about something very shameful to me...I asked if he could move his chair to sit against the same wall as me....we sat side by side with an empty chair between us...looking at his bookshelf for a few sessions... Of course I had to explain that I couldn't stand the idea that he was looking at me... We had many discussions about it afterward too.