Okay, so I went back on my word on being celibate, and just decided to go along and embrace the hormones in my body.

I'm thinking of getting a sex toy, but I don't know which size of a sex toy to find in.

The reason I'm asking this is because I've had a bad experience with the inside of me being stretched out. This happened when I was being examined for the first time (this was a couple of years ago), and the tool the doctor was using on me was stretching me out. I've never been so uncomfortable in my life having something hard and plastic going inside of me, and then when she went in deeper, it was so painful.

When I was looking over at the dildos on Amazon.com, it made me think back to that. I'm afraid of something wide hurting me again.

I want to get something that vibrates, and something that can go inside of me.

My mom has told me that I need to find something smaller in size if I don't want to go big, but don't know how to search for something in different sizes.