Thank you Pierro and waterknob1234...

I am going to call Monday morning when I get some time to myself at work and hopefully they can see me sometime next week. I am going to try to be more open (very easy to say now) but the first time I went, I guess I didn't want something to be wrong with me. But after the thoughts I had Friday and Saturday, I can't deny I need help.

I am also going to start attending AA meetings. Alcohol abuse has been another exacerbating factor in my feeling so out of whack.

Thanks again - I will keep everyone updated if you don't mind as best I can. And if anyone wants to talk about their own issues I would be more than happy to converse with you.