There is nothing wrong with your situation. I am certain the right guy will come along and break thru that shell of yours. You do have to open yourself up to relationships though as I think the idea of "why bother" sends off a certain energy that guys pick up on. I have that attitude and I have been alone a very long time...lol. And I don't think there is any truth to the whole vibrator myth about desensitization. You may get used to it a certain way, but you can just change up how you use your vibrator so you are used to different styles.