I think that it's natural for jobs to be a great source of stress. You have to ask yourself-do your beliefs allow you to live life on your own terms.

I don't think it's necessary to determine if something is a delusion- just look at see and how it is useful to you.

Not everyone has a spouse who will stand next to them for better or worse. What has your employment situation been like since leaving that employer? What are your career goals now?