Being happy is what matters the most. How can you get any better if you're not happy?
You have a lot of anger... I'm not judging, so do I.
Being around someone that condemns you all the time is hard on ya. And just makes you all the more angry. I deal with that a lot myself.
I think the best way I get through it is to go to my room, turn the lights off and just watch tv for a while, or at least till I calm down.
It's hard for others that don't know what it feels like to understand us. It's even harder on us when we don't know why we feel the way we do. Or at least that's how I feel anyway.