I don't know if i am a binge eater, because i overeat the same amount every day. I've done this for 18 years [i am 47] since my life fell apart when i was 29 and i lost my partner and stopped working. I eat a lot of junk. I've tried Overeaters Anonymous, Weight-Watchers and TOPS [Take Off Pounds Sensibly].

I diet sometimes. In 2007/8 i dieted for over a year and lost 65 pounds. I've been on three diets this year and it's only August. This year, i dieted for two days twice and three weeks once, including losing 12 pounds in the first week!

I feel really out of control with eating but the misery that comes with each failed diet is too much to handle so i decided i will just try and tolerate it. I don't drink, smoke, do drugs, gamble, hoard or ***** around so i just decided i will allow myself this weakness.

I am overweight and very unhappy about it but do not use a cane, walker, scooter or other mobility device. I can move around okay, just nothing real vigorous. I don't get the attention from men that i did when i was thin, but i don't want a partner so it's not a big deal.

If i could change my disordered eating, i would but having a flaw keeps me humble. I'm more puff than buff!