My doc walks me through every step as she does it. She will say, "Okay, a little pressure here." Or "You might feel this"

It's awkward for everyone. I don't know anyone who throws a party for the Gyno. The good news is it's quick and the most uncomfortable part is waiting while wearing only the paper johnny.

I'm sorry you were assaulted. I hope you have someone to talk to about the assault. If you aren't seeing a therapist and if mom has a hard time talking about it maybe you could mention to the Gyno that you should probably see someone to talk about it with and maybe she can mention it to mom.

((((Hugs)))))