lilodian4ever caught my attention. Small town where I live, and only had very few long term friends I told about my BPII. Don't expect them to drop back by ever again. Then word spreads in town of 24K. I feel something I can only guess is depression, and much comes from business. I feel my wife has to do all the book keeping, pay bills, taxes, and such because I get unnerved trying to do any of that. Feel less than others. Try to connect here just to relate to someone other than my wife which we don't talk much about it. My medications have made all the difference in my life, but then there is always that bug flying around my head.