Family Trouble seems to intense for you. The Loss of your Father is playing tricks on your mind. Grief is very much at play here. Give your self some space from family for now. Try a vacation for a few weeks, far away from home for awhile, to give your mind time to sort feelings, and all out. Leave the phone at home and the computer.

If you can't travel, then turn off the phone, lock the computer away, and give yourself some space and time, to sort things out. Right now you need separation from family, and peace and beauty around you, for now.