I have strong awareness of my illness which has affected different aspects of my life for years. It's good that I was able to gain good insight into illness I have, but its challenging coping with it on my own and when people say negative unhelpful things it doesn't help me feel better. But I don't wanna give up. I'm quite strong and brave and open minded. If it was mild bipolar then I wouldn't be suffering a lot with it, I'd be able to live my life more in control, independently, freely. I feel its physical effects too.