I'm sorry you're feeling so bad tonight. I'm not great at saying the right thing, but I feel your pain and I am here and no doubt others will be soon. Try and be kind to yourself. It sounds like you have a lot to deal with and sometimes things like cancelled appointments can be the last straw. I'm really pleased your t sounds like she was there for you but I know how hard it can be in between sessions. Keep posting as there will be loads of people here for you.