Wow - great responses from everyone so far - thanks to you all. I just knew I was not alone. How can prayer, meditation, cutting back on electronics, surrender to a 'higher power', watching uplifting YouTube videos (I do this also) not be helpful?? And all of those things are free and accessible to me at an time.

The 'medical model' did not bring the healing I had hoped for but the spiritual approach has been everything I had hoped for and then some.

What a great crew here at Psych Central!