Thanks to all who replied. I could write a damn novel on my life...I'm not no twenty year old anymore. It doesn't get any easier as you age. It sucks...mental illness is a f***ing kick in the head. At least the younger generation has the internet...we had nothing. I have a cold heart now. I actually sympathize with the ones that go and shoot people..yep..I f***ing do. I actually understand now why they do it. Therapy is a way of trying to help those who have no hope! My views only so nobody take offense to this post. When you've been to hell and back....