Thanks so much, both of you.

Ugh. I was confronted this yesterday by a girlfriend about my work habits, led to me admitting I had ADD, and she brushed it off and went on to tell me how I should do things to improve and be able to get my work done so I can take Madrigals next year (I'd be taking eight classes instead of the alotted seven, one online). It was pretty painful, especially because she was right (about my work habits... despite what she says I literally CANNOT take eight classes for several reasons), she talked about it like it was SO easy, and probably won't get off my back about "trying to help me" now. I appreciate the fact that she cares, and I know she's right, I know I should be working now instead of being online, I %#@&#! GET IT ALREADY, and yes I know she's been through this "phase" before, she has serious ADD and other stuff so she DOES know how hard it is, but... just... it HURTS to get talked to that way. I know I should be able to deal with criticism like that, but I hate it when I feel like %#@&#! and have no excuse to feel that way. Nothing to allow me to cry and make the crying okay, no reason for anybody to just say, "It's okay, it's not your fault," because it IS. It's still MY unwillingness, my... whatever. My laziness, and I can't even say, "I'm lazy and that's why," because EVERYBODY is lazy to some degree so it's not an excuse. Maybe this is why I feel like I'd rather be messed up.

Not exactly how I wanted to "admit" to having problems. I'm just glad I can keep my mouth shut and will never tell her any of this.

I am SO SO SORRY again for the rant, and thank you both for all your kind words!!
~muse

(lol, I just hijacked my own thread! XD)