Dear Lilodian4ever, thank you for your appreciation of the poem. I have my moments where things come together, but other times I feel weighed down by it all. This has been a multi decade journey so I try to focus on the high points.
I do meditate but not trying to change anything but to be more aware of what is happening around me and in me now. It can be as simple as following the breath.
Or listening to a bird sing. The magic is inside each one of us waiting to express itself.