((((((((((((((((((((((((((MadMusician)))))))))))))))))))))))

Please please PLEASE don't let yourself fall into that darkness!!! You DO have worth, and there are people out there (probably closer to you than you think) who WANT to spend time with you because they care for you greatly and want nothing more than to HELP you and see you happier!!! I know how incredibly painful it can be to feel the way you're feeling, but (even though this can seem more painful than just feeling worthless!!) you need to try and pull yourself up a little.

You should give yourself some seriously massive kudos for recognizing that the world does not revolve around you and other people are affected by your actions and feelings. STOP RIGHT THERE, because that's enough for now, don't go beyond that, and, IF YOU CAN (sometimes it gets bad enough that this isn't healthy, I know) see if you can work out a way to deal with your pain and hurt that helps you and puts less weight on others. More than likely, though, you're doing JUST FINE and other people around you aren't as pulled down by you as you think.

I'm sorry if that was just a bunch of random babble, but I sincerely hope and pray that things look up for you really soon!!!
luck&love,
~muse