As I only started new meds a few months ago, it's been really hard adjusting. I was a mess, I couldn't do or organize anything. I think that was what I was getting at as my mum said you can't blame it on bipolar. But that was definitely what it was and starting the new meds knocked me for six. I'm adjusting better now but still don't think these are the right ones for me. I'm no way giving up. I'll keep trying different ones til I find one that works. As we all do major stress in my life ATM and it's overwhelming. I will get on to those websites for sure. I'm definitely not an a.hole, yes I get grumpy and irritable but I do apologize for it. I like to help people if I can that makes me feel better.