Morning PC crew. Thank you all SO very much for all your kind words, I truly appreciate it.

Trying to stoke myself up to head into work, really tense as I think my boss is going to be really pissed at me/ might lose my job today. It's crazy I can't keep this up, need to figure out something. My s thoughts were still rambling round my head telling me what a nice place my beautiful new bed would be to slip away in, and simply be free of everything, but I've been able to park them for now and focus on seeing what happens at work. Even have two cigarettes (I usually only smoke every second weekend or so, with drinks) in case I get the sack and need something immediate to calm me down.

Thank you all.