I have really been having a hard time lately with trying to figure out why I have literally no friends to hang out with. I have two friends but they live far away and we can't hang out. I have tried to make friends at work and school but I always have that blow up in my face. I usually manage to hang out with someone one time or so before they decide to avoid ever doing that again. All of the long term friendships I have had minus the two that live far away have stopped being friends with me. Usually the reason I get is somewhere along the lines of "I can't deal with your mental illness anymore." I mean I can't possibly be that heinous of a person to be around. My therapist thinks I have a good personality so that should count for something, right? I dunno, just so tired of spending soooo much time alone. I love my fiancé and my mom but they can only do so much for me. I really just want a good friend to hang out with.

Does anyone else feel like a social leper as well? I'm waiting to find out that I have horrific body odor or something... at least that would explain it.