Anxiety is a bit better, but it's once again 3am and I can't sleep cause my brain won't shut up. I'm trying to limit the Ativan to every other night, because I'm paranoid my pdoc will be mad at me if I show up with an empty bottle because I needed it all. He only gave me 14 tablets for two weeks. But I can't take it during the day because it knocks me out. And it doesn't help I've got a show opening this coming weekend so I'm anxious about that too. Probably going to call in the morning and see if I can get BuSpar or something I can actually take as needed instead of the Ativan, and surrender my remaining Ativan at my next appointment. This not being able to take it when I really need it sucks.