I'm having trouble identifying my feelings, particularly if it's a positive feeling. That's sort of my fault, because when i started high school i made this conscious decision that i want to numb my feelings. That meant that when i felt sad and depressed i tried to push those feelings away and didn't cry, because i thought that was showing weakness. When i felt angry with someone i didn't argue with them. . . and so on . What i thought then was that if i don't act on my negative emotions that i'm numbing them and then i can only feel the positive ones, but what came as a result was that i felt completely numb. I felt that all my tears dried up and when i smiled the muscles on my cheeks hurt. Also it was a period when i felt really distanced with everybody and just demotivated. Then the following year i got transferred to a different school and after the self acceptance that i have a mental disorder and two months of therapy, i began taking dietary supplements. That's when i felt like something unwound in me, and all the emotions just started to break free. I could feel happy and laugh from the heart, but also i started to tear up for no reason . Although ever since then i'm feeling better, i still get back to feeling empty once in while. The hardest thing about this situation is that when i feel like that i don't know how to react to certain situations that require emotional response. And also i find it hard to express my feelings, like i can't find the right words for them. The only feelings i can express are for the most part anxiety and sadness, because i feel them very intense.