Oh Leah - it's hard, isn't it? I hate that feeling of being over-exposed and vulnerable too! I hope your T is reacting in ways that feel supportive and helpful, and I hope you were able to get good night's sleep...

If it helps any, it seems like the more we don't want to talk about something - the more helpful (in the end) it will be to have talked about it... so maybe there's some small consolation in there. You're doing really great work!