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Originally Posted by NowhereUSA
i'm sorry! i didn't mean to trigger those emotions  i know what that feels like though. i get like that with my t. i've been long enough with him now that when i feel exposed i usually end whatever i'm saying with, 'and now i want to insult you because f*** you.' it's almost a joke with us now. he says he considers me holding back an act of endearment.
i hope it goes well today. |
Thanks very much. It's totally not you, I appreciate that you posted. My reactivity can't be helped right now, but I know it will change in time. And yes, that's exactly my impulse, the "F you!" one, in part at least, to just flail in a really angry manner. I'm torn between that and just falling apart, sigh, it feels like and that's probably the struggle. Somewhere in the middle is calm acceptance, at least I hope.