Hi...I'm just really struggling today...I am so sad that I can't do much of anything. I couldn't eat yesterday because I was so sad. I have a girlfriend who loves me and we just moved into a house together, but I just can't be happy. I don't even know why anymore...I'll try really hard to be happy but it will always just catch up to me that I am overwhelmingly sad and I want to die. I wish I was a better person, but I can't be that person. I've been seeing a therapist for a couple years, I know it's not her fault I'm not improving, no one can help me. I've tried a lot of meds before but nothing works on me. I feel doomed and I can't bare the pain I feel. It's even worse when my girlfriend wants me to talk about it and I just don't say anything because I would say "I don't know" but she doesn't want to hear that, so I just stay silent. My life is as good as over.