I've seen lots of recommendations to print out something you've written and bring it, as is, to your T. This sounds like a great way to really get honest stuff in to your T's hands.

If you've done it... does your T ever get hurt or offended by what you've written? I have some stuff I wrote that was directed to T... but was really just me being honest and emotional in private writing. I think it might be helpful to bring in, but I'm really nervous about hurting T's feelings.

(Yes, I know I'm not SUPPOSED to worry about that - but I do. I think it feels like... if I upset him or hurt his feelings, he's not going to want to help me or work with me anymore. I've been kicked out of therapy before, and had friends/family members disappear on me, so this isn't just me making up stuff!)

The stuff in particular that I'm worried about is saying outright that I'm not sure if I can trust T (that seems pretty normal ), not sure if he knows what he's doing (that seems kind of mean to me!), not sure if he understands me (but that I get why he wouldn't given I'm having a hard time opening up - so not his fault), and sort of taking him to task for not getting that something I said was a bit more important to me.

I don't know - I guess I want to be honest, but I don't want to blow up the relationship, since that is supposed to be what's will help me heal. Too many abandonnment issues and not really convinced yet that T will be better (!!!). It doesn't help that TWICE my dear sister has ended a phone call with me by saying, "Good luck with therapy! Don't be too hard on him!" (!)

Any advice? Have you shared stuff like this with your T? Did they handle it well, or did they get defensive?