Thanks... it's hard, because part of what seems to happen is that I get myself back to a nice, happy, normal state... so the stuff I wrote seems overly strong now, you know? Like, "gosh, why would I have written that?" But clearly I did, and it sounds pretty honest and in the moment!

BlessedRhianon - thanks, I'm really glad to hear your T was ok and didn't react defensively or lash out at you (!). I'm open to more conversations, I think, just nervous!

HazelGirl - Thanks, it helps to hear that you've said the same things to your T! I guess one of the things I really need from T is for him to be able to keep himself/his stuff separate from my stuff. Previous Ts seem to have taken things personally (I had one T who made jokes about me not liking him... omg... I was trying as hard as I could but he seemed to take my problems personally, when they really were not!)

Thanks...