Not anything more than you guys already know it's just you know you think if you're good and do everything you're supposed to do then things will work out but as you know that's really not the case...sometimes bad stuff just happens and it's not because you were bad or wrong or didn't listen or whatever...

I hoped I was well and now I have no idea what I am----I'm sad about losing my bird----I didn't get to the work I needed to do last week so I'm behind on the grant----

Talked to my boss about what's going on she knows about my bird and the fact that I'm relapsed now---she said I've been doing great so that's good and I feel somewhat better....