Invega is keeping me relatively stable. I'm still cycling a little bit but it's less intense and I've got a lot of personal stress playing in to that so I can't expect to be totally stable anyway. And it's keeping all strange thoughts away. Geodon didn't do that. Geodon allowed me to recognize my thoughts were unreasonable but didn't keep them out. That's why I don't want to go off of it. If I did have to is to back on risperdal but like you it made me gain like fifteen pounds in three weeks. I don't want that. I'll take it if I have to though because I just can't do the psychosis again. It was terrifying. I'm taking on a lot more responsibility at work this school year and I can't afford another hospital stay, nor can I afford to be a quivering paranoid mess. I don't know how I held it together last year at work. It wasn't until I went on spring break that things got totally out of hand, probably because I didn't have to pretend anymore.
I hope the risperdal works to keep the paranoia at bay for you. It's the worst.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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