First up I'm not suicidal. I just have no passion for the things I used to enjoy. I'm underemployed in a dead end call center job but can find a job in my field of social work. I look at the listings any apply for 2-3 a week but some I just don't have the energy or patience for.
Laying in bed with my dog and a stack of library books is about all the passion I can muster right now. I'm on 450 mg effexor daily plus 2 mg klonopin to help with anxiety and sleep. I'm seeing a therapist weekly and she suggested I go to a support group but they're all in the evenings when I'm at work so I'm giving this a try.
I'm diagnosed with major depression with bouts of cyclothymia. The depression seems strongest usually. Thanks for listening.
Cat