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Old Aug 18, 2014, 01:43 PM
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Originally Posted by ozzy1313 View Post
Hi! I'm new here. I'm a 38 yo happily married woman with two kids. History of depression and eating disorders. This year I was diagnosed bipolar 2 which explained a lot! I have been stable on meds for about 9 months. before this I never knew I had hypomania- just thought I had really wide mood swings. Anyway, since I have been "normal" for so long I knew something was up with me. A few weeks ago I started wanting to socialize more, drink more, ordered stuff to redo kitchen and knocked down a wall...oh, and started an affair with my manager (and all my family works there). This is not the first time I have had texting, flirting relationships- usually they have started when I am drunk.(does mania urge me to drink or does drinking urge me towards mania?) I rarely drink otherwise. This one I was just manic and couldn't quit contacting him. Then I calmed down and told him this was ending. Then today I started it back up- I have been up all day after a few days of being kind of out of it and drugged feeling. For the past 3 weeks I have felt different every day. I have seen my psych and see a new therapist this week.

WHY do I keep risking my happy life with these stupid guys??? Last week I even cut myself over the hate I had towards myself for doing this - I hadn't cut in 20 years!

How do I stop? I just feel like I am on a roller coaster and then I wonder if all my reading of message boards is making me worse by having myself focusing on it.

So, why do I keep risking my job, my family, my life, for this stupid impulsive stuff. I love my husband and my life- him and I still have fun together and my home life is very stable.

300mg wellbutrin
150mg lamictal
.5 xanx
40mg prozac
So sorry to hear I'm bipolar II, and it's all about finding the right dose, and med cocktail. I'm no pdoc, but to start with, I'd add an AAP, like Latuda, then probably get rid of your Wellbutrin or lower it to 100mg SR, then increase your Lamictal from 400-600mg. For most with bipolar, ADs typically induce hypomania/mania, and to prevent going too high and too low you need low doses of ADs and to be on an the right anti-convulsant and atypical anti-psychotic for mood stability...Best of luck!!
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