I don't know why but I'm so triggered right now. I'm just so angry at myself for not being perfect, or not trying hard enough to be. But what do I do when I hate every fibre of my being? And here I am again, going on about myself. It's always me me me. Just, ughhh. I want to feel that feeling of ripping my skin open, again. I deserve the pain. I need it. I want it?