I will just say that my life is complicated. I have 3 kids, ages 7, 5, 6 months. My oldest has severe dyspraxia and requires therapy and a little extra attention, my husband works 2 jobs. My dad has been in the hospital for 3 months, moved to rehab a week ago, my grandpa fell and hit his head and is now in the hospital. It is just me and mom family wise left to take care of them and make desicions. My mom wants me to pretty much be at her call, go shopping, go to meetings at rehab, go out for dinner, whatever. I get that she needs interaction. But my house, which we are trying to build onto is a wreck, I can't seem to get anything done, I feel stuck. I can take of the kids and fix dinners, but that is about it. I can't function, I feel frozen. It took me an hour to remember to give the kids their lunch. I go to bed and feel like I can't breath. I get up with them intent to accomplish something, but end up sitting and staring or playing on the computer, doing anything feels pointless. I don't know what it is, I just know I am not me. I feel overwhelmed, but people expect me to be super woman, and I can't. I feel tired all the time, I hurt all over, just feel sick, but nothing is actually wrong. I just don't know what to do or where to go.
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